deep inside of me
and now i struggle just to breath
and this used to be my own safety
the side walks the doorknob
and the memories are grey
I'd rather keep them all that way
'cause i can't relive
all of those nights when i was
afraid that i wouldn't ever be the same
when i was shaking in a cold sweat
cursing all the pain I've had
i can't go back to all this!
(the pain I've had)
i can't go back to all this now
look at me
I'm a mess
a mess of everything
that i never wanted to be
i can't relive
i can't relive
all of those nights when i was
afraid that i wouldn't ever be the same
when i was shaking in a cold sweat
cursing all the pain I've had
i can't go back to all this
(the pain I've had)
i can't go back to all this
i can't go back to all this NOW
all of those nights when i was
afraid that i wouldn't ever be the same
when i was shaking in a cold sweat
cursing all the pain I've had
